Sometimes things just don’t work out. You have everything set up perfectly a no-fail plan right? Then one thing happens that leads to another and another and next thing you know you are spiraling downwards into a black abyss. Life is tough and yes some people have it worse than I but that doesn’t mean I don’t react the way I do or struggle with what I do have to deal with. When did it become so hard to survive let alone actually live. Bills to pay but not enough money to pay them. No one wants to hire you without experience so you are in a never ending loop of needing experience to get a job but needing a job to get experience. Schools keep cutting classes making sure you don’t graduate on time. People expect the most from you when you don’t have any support. It’s becoming harder to keep myself upright. Standing up and going through my every day things are becoming a strain. Day in and Day out I go to work and come home and work on school work then sleep then back at it again the next day. When was the last time my smile was genuine. When was the last time I felt alive. I look at people everyday with their best friends and group of friends and I wonder where is mine. Where is the never leaving support I am supposed to have by so called friends. It’s not that I don’t try to make friends but it seems like every time I do they take advantage of me then screw me over. True I have some friends but I don’t always get to see them and yes I have an amazing boyfriend but I can’t put all that pressure on him. … Have you ever just looked in the mirror and not liked who you saw. You look at yourself staring back at yourself and think, “this is impossible, that can’t be me” You listen to yourself talk and hate how you sound. You question everything about yourself. Am I a failure? Am I a good person? Why do people even put up with me? You find yourself unable to fake it anymore and develop a permanent scowl. Why smile? Why try? This society is developing a generation of people that are depressed and unhappy with life. How many people think of suicide or self harm? How about the kids that want to shoot up their schools? Why? Because no one is taught compassion and love. Schools allow people to bully and no one tries any different. Corporations are taking all of our money and we can’t do anything about it. Schools cost a fortune and people can’t afford it unless they are on loans or get financial aid. Even then, we go to school and can’t get any of the classes we need. No one is helping up prepare for “the real world” no one gives a shit. My English teacher asked the class if we should care about our neighbors and take care of them as they would for us. I said “no, why should i care for them no one cares about me. We live in a society where it is everyone for themselves and that is the reality of it. No one thinks about how their actions are going to affect someone else they do it anyways.” She thought it was sad I could think this way but maybe what she needs to realize is society shaped me just like everyone else. It’s not me that needs a reality check it is society as a whole.
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Both photos are of the same girls. They just so happened to have fallen in love.
While I try not to reblog things that I’ve reblogged here before, I can’t help but do this one again. OMG THE CUTEST!
there is way too much hate going around about this wonderful guy right now, so here’s a Jared Padalecki appreciation post
a gif of young jensen smiling to brighten your day
i dare you to look at this and not smile
i think im going to reblog this every once in a while because somebody out there is having a bad day and looking at this might make it a little bit brighter
seeing other people smile is proven to lift someone’s mood, and novody’s smile is more beautiful and brighter than jensen’s
Seriously, I can’t be the only one who thinks Sam looks like Simba!
We can add this to the list of things I would have never thought of without Tumblr